Aaannd… just in case any of you wondering, why haven’t I been so noisy these weeks since lots of weird things in my life usually do need explanation.. let me just start off by telling you that I am about to make a decision big enough it’s supposed to bring that kind of change in my life, one that I may or may not regret later.
Yes. I am moving abroad.
A decision process that has wasted several years of my life, trying to make it as ‘accommodative’ as possible for everyone, an effort that prove just how stupid and naïve I really am most of the time.
But life has been tick-tocking so frickin’ loud lately, and I still can’t get over my head yet on how to make it more favorable than it already would have been even from 4 years ago.
So there I was, in the midst of my sister’s marriage, and I thought.. fuck it. Let’s just go.
I figure if there was one person in this life that should fight for my happiness, it should first be me. Duh! Right?
So I guess this is an apology of some sort.. for some people I do love more than anything. Whom I’d let go of anything for, if it didn’t do that much wrecking to my soul I feel out of breath all the time. So I’ve failed.. hopefully with one I can repair in time.
Life has taught me quite bit more than what it does to most 26 years old out there, and one lesson I bet would stick long enough in my head. is how you should always set things right for yourself first, before you go and try fixing others’ heart.
I’ve found this is sometime the only way things will fall at their own places, in a perfect order they were meant to. I’d like to believe that’s just how universe works.